1.22.2005

Today...

Is my son's birthday. He is seven years old today. I have not seen him in six years. It was my decision, it is a long story, and I am too tired to go into it. But last May I attempted to re-enter his life. His mother was not against it but reacted to it in a way that made it difficult. She took me to court because she was afraid I would just show up one day and say I am here to pick up Ryan for the weekend. I sent a very appropiate letter requesting her co-operation in doing this in a proper manner. We went to court on July 1st, 2004. Sometime in late August it was finally signed by a judge as a court order. I was fine with all of that. I talked to the court appointed counselor and she told me what it would cost and how long it would take. I truly believed we would be done with it and I would be seeing him now. Since that is not the case I will call the counselor on Monday in an attempt to find out when we are scheduled to do this. I shy away from contact with her because we have not communicated in a very good manner over the years. I want no part of any kind of negative conversation. I have made it a point to not argue with people as it doesn't get me anywhere. But I must overcome my reluctance and contact her. She had written a small note in her last medical bill she sent that if I had any questions, just ask. I started a letter some weeks ago but have not completed it. I will endeavor to do that this week. I spent the day with my parents today running around town. I bought some rechargeable batteries that were on sale and also have a mail-in rebate. Then I bought a shower radio for Jess so she can listen to music in the morning. Our taste in music differs and I prefer she does not subject my ears to preferred radio station. Then it was off to lunch, Chinese Super Buffet (yum, yum!) where of course I ate too much! Next up was 1/2 Price Books which presented me with a smorgasbord of pc games. I was never much into pc games but I decided I wanted to try a role-playing game. Most of them were under $10 and would work on both my pc (old and slow) and Jess's (new and powerful). I have always waited until new stuff wasn't new and then bought it cheap. I have never felt the need to be the first to have some new toy, except for when my Handspring Visor came out. That I bought right away. But four years later, it is old and slow but works just fine for what I use it for. After a couple of grocery stores we headed to their house where I just hung out for awhile and just visited. Once I arrived home I proceded to setup the router I bought at Amazon a few weeks ago and voila! I have access on two pc's now! Also, I discovered that old and slow laptop I bought is just powerful enough for my cable modem and router so I will be online with that also very soon. A good day overall. I hope to celebrate my son's with him next year.

1 comment:

An Adventurer said...

I'm sorry you didn't get to spend your son's birthday with him but I'm sure he's thinking of you just as much as you are of him. And believe me when I say no matter what, kids always love their parents. I can say that because as much crap as mine have put me through in the last twenty-five years, I'm still helpless about loving them. They just have very limited access to my life. Your situation is fortunately different and I'm sure it will change to become all you want it to be.